So I have been struggling with the decision to stay here or go back to Oklahoma to help with my dad...BUT yesterday I talked with John.
John got me up to speed on dad, and told me that my mother is staying at the house too...he said that my dad is doing much better with her there...so if the week trial period (of my mom living with John too) then they will take her out of the dementia center and bring her to live there.
If this is the decision, then I know for a fact, I will not go back. I cannot even imagine myself having to see and deal with my mother every day. NO way. It seems that my moms mind is pretty "all there", it is her speech that is so affected...she basically talks gibberish, but she cognitively is aware of what is going on around her...
My brother David, told John he was no longer going to help with his dad....he says he has health issues, getting some biopsies and his skin cancer may have returned to another form of cancer. Around 10 years ago he had a melanoma removed from the top of his head....I am not sure how much I believe that David is having health issues...I believe it is more issues with his wifes family and his laziness and flat inability to stand up and be a man...he is too pussy whipped. So if I was there, I would be fucking beating his ass....
Then I was told that my son, the one recently divorced, has a girlfriend and she lives in Amarillo and that he is looking into moving there to be with her. That means he would be abandoning his own children for some girl. THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE AND I AM FURIOUS IF THIS IS TRUE. John said Deedra told him this...Deedra is a tool and a fucking liar, so I am not convinced this is actually true. I know that he has a new girlfriend, I have seen her picture, but there was no mention from him that he plans on moving....so we will see....Again, if I was there I would be fucking beating his ass too..
I have no problem with my son divorcing his whore bitch wife and having a new woman, but he needs to put his kids and their needs first...leaving the state and leaving them for a woman will be a mental nightmare for the kids...I know, I lived that type of a childhood with my mom...and look at my mental state now....and this is what my sons decision could cost him: hatred from his kids, a disconnect with them, missing their day to day lives and most importantly leaving his sons to grow up without a man or father in their life...and a daughter needs her daddy....god this pisses me off, but John asked me not to say anything to Gary about this...so I will keep my mouth shut...for now...
Now, sitting back, the dilemma of stay or go back has been decided. I simply do not want to be involved in all that fucking drama. I am so glad I am away from that...
Thank you to John for the phone call, that solidified my decision to stay and let them figure it out for themselves...If John wants the responsibility of taking care of two dementia patients, then that is his decision...His bed to lie in...
My kids are grown ass adults, John is an adult, they make their decisions, just like I made mine to leave the fold...I finally grew up and left to forge my own life...and that is exactly what I am doing now.
Turning the page...
S
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