cryptic poetry

 Okay, so I read what Sammy posted....it seems stupid to me.

I am doing okay, maybe she is referring to the carnage which is this years presidential election...although I doubt she really knows what is going on and what is at stake for our country...

I know that she is "mute" for a reason, and that she holds memories that I am not aware of, maybe she is speaking about those....I fucking don't know, and it makes me mad when she writes those "poems"....she is not speaking for me, Sparrow...even though she is a part of me, fucking weird.

There is a level of darkness in this country, the darkness of Donald dump Trump...and I feel so "horrified" of him winning the election....is she feeling the darkness that is trying to engulf me over a possible Trump victory and our country becoming a "Fascist" nation?

Is she feeling the darkness that is encompassing me on the "imminent" death of my step dad and the chaotic after math that will be funeral and family?   There is that horrific fear of "do I go, or do I stay..."

Or is she commenting on the darkness that is the time change where it is darker during the day?  I think everyone of us knows that the winter solstice and time change, coupled with the holiday season, is depressing to me...it is a dark time for me...

I wish that she would "speak",  I feel that somehow, her memories, are keeping me from truly healing, that old saying "secrets keep you sick"  is true, but how do I tell a secret that is keeping me "sick" when I cannot speak of it because I simply don't know what it is....only Sammy knows...is that the darkness she refers too?

Fuck, her posts just make me even more confused...it is so fucking hard trying to decipher and understand what she writes...I do not know what goes on in the Sammy part of my brain....because she is silent,  I will never know...whereas the others do speak, and can be spoken too and explain themselves or whatever...Sammy does not, can not and will not.....

She only leaves cryptic poems...

S