So this morning, I was up by 5:30 am. But as soon as I got out of bed, my ear started to ring...this happens alot...it is not tenuities, it has been happening all my life for no apparent reason and no physical cause. It is not the brain tumors, I am not sure why this happens....
But this morning, after the ringing stopped, I literally felt my brain shift, move...and a feeling of intense sadness and despair rolled over me.....now I am on the verge of tears, what the fuck?
Everything in my life is good, Kevin is good, my home is good, my pets are good, my physical health is good, so why the despair?
I feel so strange, disconnected, not really here. Why? I feel like I am looking thru a thick pane of glass, I can see, but it is distorted...I can think, but my thoughts are distorted...I can feel, but my feelings feel exaggerated and distorted.
I am scared for today. I have a very dear friend that is having heart surgery today....maybe the ringing in my ears is from my empathic nature/soul...the universe telling me to keep her in my thoughts, burn candles and speak healing and good health....maybe the ringing is to let me know that today, something bad will happen to me, or my critters, or my friends, or my family....but I feel extremely on edge, nervous and hyper sensitive....
Whatever the reason, I have fear....
S
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