Smile

 I finally got some sleep....the pain is still there, but it seems to be lessening some...I have been so careful to let my body rest and heal....I have no patience for pain,  maybe this is the universes way of forcing me to be patient, or to practice patience. 

Either way,  having busted or bruised ribs is absolutely no fun, and probably the worse pain to have to endure..you can't cough, laugh, take a deep breath, tightening your stomach muscles to even get up from a sitting position results in a sharp stabbing pain....ugh....

Also, I have noticed that I simply do not "bounce back" anymore, I guess that is age, and fuck, I don't have time to be down!   I hate this.   I feel so bad for Kevin who feels so guilty for being careless and it resulting in me getting injured and him walking away, unscathed...but, it is what it is...I know that he would have much rather been the one hurt than me...I know that.  I am not upset with him, I was, but now I am not.   

Getting 9 hours of sleep last night has started to part the clouds of depression that were covering me...I hope those clouds continue to dissipate.  

Depression paralyzes me....and it also triggers out alters that I don't want out, especially Sophee......

So today,  I am going to try and see the sky through the clouds...I have a hair appointment and have to run a couple of errands...I will manage the pain, best I can, and smile for the world.

S