reasons...

 Well fuck....

When I first purchased my Jeep, I joined 3-4 Jeep FB groups.  But each of those groups ridiculed me and bullyied me because I drive a Cherokee and not a Wrangler.  By far, it was the men that were such dick wads...But I was in a womens only Jeep group and it was much better, but one day a lady made a snide and rude comment about Cherokees, so I left a comment "defending" my cherokee and the other ladies in the group that happened to drive Cherokees....That group, deleted my comment and paused my membership.....So I basically left that group.

I found a group that was Cherokee KL only!  I was so excited to be on a group where everyone drove Cherokees and I wanted to learn more about the jeep....I joined and posted pics of my jeep and the mods that I have done.  

But again, some dick wad man dissed my mod, calling it "crap"....this really hurt me and I read the posts (where several men joined in critizing my Jeep, which is a Cherokee like they drive!  Kevin was furious and he responded to the post with a "beat down" to the guy....

Whelp, that group booted me....and it was Kevins remarks, not me...he said in the post that he was my partner, then he went on to ream that dick wad....

This really upset me, not because I got booted, but because, once again, a man had to ruin it with their fucking opinions and words....

Why can't people just keep their negative opinions to themselves and just scroll on by if they disagree.....why do they have to be such fucking dick wads???

I hate men.Just like Kevin always says "he hates women", I understand now why he says that...women have fucked him over his entire life, as men have fucked me over my entire life....Hoomans are just dicks

The only group I am in now is called "unbiassed"....they accept all jeeps and really mean it.  I have never seen any bullying or mean speak in this group.  Despite political, religious and lifestyle, they accept you as a "jeep" person.  Period.

I got my Jeep lifted almost 3" with rear stilettoes...and new bigger tires.  Sunday will be my first trail ride with my new mods, and it is with the "unbiassed" group.  I am so excited for this ride and to see how much better my jeep handles all those rocks and waterways.

So, I am trying to shrug off the "rejection" I feel because of what happened with the Cherokee group.  But, it is very hard....I fight feelings of rejection but they run so deep...

I invited a friend like 2 weeks ago to go to the Dogwood Festival with me....she read the invite, but so far crickets....so I will go alone today, as Kevin works.  Again, I am feeling "rejection" there too....she could have just answered "no" I can't go, instead nothing.....that is not a friendship.....so fuck it.

I still cannot understand why I have such a hard time having "girlfriends"...why?  Are they jealous, do I threaten them in some way, is it my religion of choice, is it the man I am with, is it the DID?   I truly wish a woman would tell me why they don't want to be my friend.

If I knew the reasons, then maybe I could work on them and become a better person or friend....but if I don't know why, then how do I change?????

Oh well,  I will go to the festival by myself, which is pretty much my life, alone.

S