happy, healthy and good

 I do not understand why my depression is coming on....everything is good, basically,  nothing earth shattering to throw me into depression, but there it is, rearing its ugly head.

Yesterday, I tried to get out and take Boomer to the cove, but there were too many kids around for Boomer to be able to relax and enjoy himself (he is terrified of children, and strangers),  also it was fucking freezing cold so we did not stay long...I am sure Boomer was so bummed....

Depression is so weird...I can be "happy go lucky, with not a care in the world" so it would seem to others looking in...but the veil of depression is slowly covering my eyes...There is nothing anyone can do or say to stop the veil from being lowered.  I refuse to take anti-depressants....been there did that, and I do not wish to be a zombie.

I am so weary of going through my feed and reading peoples post about "poor me, I have cancer, or poor me, I lost my job, or poor me my life sucks"

Life sucks for everyone, and talking about it on facebook, just makes it suck more for people who are suffering.  Whining and complaining and bitching does not help, not in a public forum....so I will not ever be posting anything negative, sad or whatever on my page...just memes and pictures only.  There are support groups for people to engage in for support and guidance or just to bitch...

I have some friends on my page that every single post is about how miserable their life is,  how unhappy or fearful they are, or they post stupid fake news and are idiots...nobody wants to read doom and gloom every single day from "friends" on facebook, we get enough of that with the news channels...fuck

So this is my depression posting right now.  I understand people are hurting and see no way out of their situation, no cure, no escape, and this just feeds my depression.....it feeds the depression in others too, because not only do I see their posts, but so do their friends....and nobody wants to interact with a debbie downer 24/7....I know this from my own life....I have been a debbie downer alot, on here, on Youtube and on facebook...but no more!  (well, my blog is my vent page, so those of you who read this, will read me at times being a debbie downer,  my blog is my emotional outlet...not facebook.)   I don't need people feeling "sorry for me" on facebook...I hate pity, and life is not about me!  Its about life and living, not death and dying....fuck, we all are gonna die...so get over yourselves!!!!!

Get over yourselves, get out of the fucking house, put your damn cell phone away, disconnect from social media, and do something positive...figure out your life...

As far as the world and facebook is concerned, I am happy, healthy, and good.

S