Dumb Blonde Memes

 Most people who are literally stupid, don't know they are stupid, because they are too stupid to realize "they are stupid"....think Maga republicans....

Then there are people like me.   Who did well in school, scored high on an IQ test, but still remained stupid.

Why?  because of DID.  Each alter has their own memories and when they are fronting, I am "asleep", so I have no fucking ideal what they said or learned or whatever...  Then I "wake up", go about my day, only to find out I don't know something, that I should know....the alter knows, but I don't...so that makes me so fucking stupid.

I will think things in my head, and I will feel so certain that I know what I am talking about, then come to find out, I don't know jack shit.   Kevin has to constantly be patient with me, he has to talk to me like a student in school, some little kid, and he is teaching me....

Its humiliating....I am a fucking 61 yr old woman who has the mentality and the ability to NOT understand even the simplest of things, like a fucking retard.

I misunderstand everything.   I bought a dog tracker, but instead of putting it on Boomer, I am hiding it in my jeep...that way if it is stolen, the tracker is there...so Kevin was trying to tell me that any Samsung phone will be able to "ping" the jeep...I could not understand, why only my phone will give the location, but everybody elses phone will not....I could not fucking understand how that works...

I mean FUCK ITS A SIMPLE DOG TAG LOCATOR...ITS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE.  

I cannot believe how fucking stupid and ignorant I am....I am literally the dumb blonde.   I am the cliche for "dumb blonde jokes".

I simply do not understand why Kevin wants to be with me....I am so stupid that I cannot even carry on an intelligent conversation with him.   He is constantly teaching and explaining shit to me, I mean everything.  He is always right, and that is so fucking embarrassing and frustrating to me....because his rightness,  flies in the face of my stupidity.

He has got to be embarrassed to take me anywhere, especially around his co-workers....because I am nothing but his dumb blonde sidekick.  Him being with me, makes him even appear more smart and intelligent.  I am eye candy, and thats it.

Every time, I think in my lame head, something is right, and I try and explain to Kevin why I think this...he patiently lets me prattle on, then like a dad talking to a small child, he has to patiently tell me the correct thing.  When I finally get it into my useless stupid head, he is right, then it makes me feel even more stupid and it makes me so fucking angry with myself....its humiliating for me.  So humiliating in fact that I don't even want to be around him.  I am just too stupid to be a partner with anyone.

Kevin deserves to be with a woman that is his equal.  Someone he does not have to explain every little thing too...how frustrating it must be for him too....I am nothing but a child, a child brain.

So, I will no longer say anything, but "Kevin, you are right."  I will just be the little quiet mouse.  I will not voice my opinion, what I think or whatever, because I am constantly corrected....and I am always always always wrong.

EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT OF MY MOUTH OR MY HEAD IS NOTHING BUT STUPIDITY AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL.

Having DID is the highest level of stupidity known to man.  Why? because a head full of conflicting thoughts, conflicting intelligence, conflicting maturity levels all of that leaves me, Sparrow, the stupid one.   

What a fucking waste I am.  I cannot do anything right or correct, I cannot understand even the simplest of stuff...There is not a goddamn thing that I know, that Kevin doesn't know better.  There is not a goddamn thing I can do, that Kevin cannot do better.  OMG....its so fucking humiliating for me....I feel like a stupid fucking retarded woman....DID has made me a fucking retard.

Thank you MOM.  Mom you were right, I am stupid....I will be a stupid person until the day I die....John, you were right, I am stupid....Everybody...ya are right, I am stupid.  Even though Kevin has never called me stupid, I know for a fact that he thinks that at times in his head.."how can she be so stupid?"  "Why can't she understand what I am trying to explain to her?"   

I am no longer going to ask questions, I am no longer going to say anything about anything...I am just going to be silent and trust that Kevin will take care of any circumstance, any mechanical, or computer or fucking anything for that matter because he is smart enough to know what is best and what is right or correct.

I am nothing but a mental disaster.  An intellectual disaster.  I am the epitome of DUMB FUCKING BLONDE.

Congratulations...I am that dumb blonde meme.

Hi I am Sparrow, nice to meet you...lets be friends, only remember I will be the stupid friend..so you have to be able to accept that.  I will be the friend to make you look better...yay me.   Everyone needs a dumbass like me in their life...I make them look smart in comparison.

FUCK I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE MYSELF.

s, 7, SOPHEE