Who has changed?

 Why is it that everyone I love says "I have changed?"  How have I changed?

I stopped going to a christian church..was that the change?

I legally separated from my husband..was that the change?

I left Oklahoma and moved 1000 miles away..was that the change?

If that was the change, then why was I "forced to change?"

I don't think I have changed, I think I have finally grown a pair of balls and decided to live the rest of my life in freedom.

I don't have to go to fucking church...nobody here expects me to do that.

I don't have to be around my husband,  I don't have to live under his "holy spirit" anymore...

I now live in a beautiful part of the country, doing things I love and actually enjoying my life...is that the change?

My family refused to see me for who I really was...I have never changed...I am still me.  Only, I am finally the "me" living for "me".

If that is selfish, fuck it, I don't care, I have lived my life taking care of literally everyone else at the expense of myself...and when I finally decide to live for me...I HAVE CHANGED...FUCK THAT SHIT.

Maybe they need to change....I am realizing that it is not always me, its more them...they need to grow up, get their heads out of that fucking bible, and open their eyes to reality.  And the reality is THEY ARE THE FUCKING ASSHOLES...THEY NEED TO CHANGE...

I refuse their demands, I am out of prison and intend to stay that way.

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