Betrayed

 I literally do not know where to start with this blog.

Kevin finally had a long conversation with John....John told Kevin that he knew I had "multiple personalities", he has known all along, but chose to ignore my suffering and struggles by simply "praying" about it....

So for 30+ years, John has watched me be a multiple.  John is also aware of our videos, but refuses to watch them.  He told Kevin he googled DID and is knowledgeable of the condition.  

But here is the kicker:  DID cannot be cured.  PERIOD

but in Johns lame mind, he says he is taking care of the situation, and in Gods time, I will be healed.  

GODS time?????  just what the fuck is gods time???

The fact of the matter is, John is a coward and refuses to get his hands dirty.  He thinks he has all the answers.  When HE HAS NEVER GIVEN  ME THOSE ANSWERS.

John is beyond cruel, his mental abuse matches my own mothers.  His denial and belief in a god is laughable.  He even refused to call me by my Legal name of Sparrow, preferring to call me Melissa.

How disrespectful is that??   

John was aware of Lilly, of course, in his eyes she is a demon.  John told Kevin that I was living in a "hell hole" here in VA.  He blamed Kevin for breaking up his marriage...REALLY??

John "how many years ago was it that I moved out of our bedroom, 15-20???  Kevin was no where around.

John:  How many times through the years have I asked you for a divorce?  Kevin was no where around then...

John:  DID is formed in early childhood....Kevin was not around then...

John:  I was with you over 30 years, Kevin was not around then...

To blame Kevin, is so beyond ridiculous...

In fact, Kevin is the only person who has actually been trying to understand my abuse, understand my DID, and he has been the only one actually trying to do something tangible to help me......He does not retreat to the back room to pray....He gets his hands dirty.  He has researched all my memories, and found them all to be true...just a simple internet search validated my memories.

Kevin has NEVER betrayed me...John has betrayed me from day one...over 30 years of betrayal,  his affair with God...fuck him

S