from Tessa

 This is Tessa.

I have been contemplating speaking for myself on her You Tube channel.  I am a Christian and I want others to know that.  She is so vocal about being a Pagan, which is her choice, but my choice is to be Christian.

I would like other people to know that it is okay to be Christian and Pagan.  I would also like to explain what I do for her.  

If it was not for me, her life would be disorganized and chaotic.  I keep her grounded.  I keep her head above water, and I keep her out of jail.  She is not aware, but I help her all the time.

I keep her on the straight and narrow as they say.

My only concern with being on camera, is the confusion and worry she will have.  

Almost her entire family has lived with me.  I was the one married to John.  I was the one involved in the church.  It was me, that managed that dog park...of course she helped and was the spokesperson, but as far as the management, and working with volunteers, that was mostly  me.  She was the one that interacted with the dogs, and Sammy helped her in teaching sign language to them and the owners.  I really don't care that much for dogs, so I let her do the dog part.  It was me that managed the finances and kept the home in order and clean.  It was me that was with John at his office obligations when he wanted her there.  I find it so weird that neither John or the kids or anybody else for that matter did not realize that it was me, and not her.  It was me that attended high school and college.  I gave her knowledge.

I mean if her friend noticed a difference, why couldn't anybody else?  But I am glad they did not...it would not have went well for her.  Just like with Lilly, she would have been subjected to so much crap if they knew of me, and the rest of us.  I am learning about the DID too, but I have always known that we live in her head.  Now I know the name of it.  I am also sad at the same time.  I like my job, if you will, in her life and I don't want that to change, but it is.

There is so much I would like to say about my part in her life.  

Tessa