communication and confusion

 So,  I am having more and more trouble with confusion.  

Kevin and I will discuss or talk about something.  Then later when I come back to that conversation,  I had a totally different take on the subject matter.   Kevin will not see and cannot understand when I get confused.

For example:  we needed some 2 way radios.  He said he had some in his trailer, just inside the door. (his words)  (So in my head, just inside the door means: open the door, reach in and check to see if they are there)...right?

Then when I mentioned it again, I was told that he has to move stuff out of the way to get to the box where he thought the 2 way radios were in.

Move shit out of the way?  He said it was right inside the door?  How did I get confused about that???  He totally did not get what I had heard him say.....then when I got frustrated that his communication to me was not clear, he only became more defensive.

Anymore we miscommunicate all the time.  

I am sure it is all me.   I am the dumb stupid one that does not understand plain english.  I get confused, then frustrated because he just flat cannot understand why I assumed something was one way when in fact, it is not that way at all....at least in HIS head.

I am not dissing him.  But I do feel that he does not listen to me as much as he "hears" me,  his mind is always processing something, whether it is a building project, a cleaning project, something he listened too on Youtube or whatever....Just like when I was trying to explain to him why I thought the 2 way radios were by the door, he said they were.  He could not understand why I was so frustrated, obviously the radios were not by the door if he had to move shit around to get to them........(when I tried to explain that, he just did not get it)...

So, in order to stop my confusion and frustration, I am no longer going to say anything to him about shit.   Because either him or me speaks german....

I also firmly believe that he is losing his hearing.  He says no, its tinnitus, but its more.  I always have to repeat myself, cause he says "what", "I didn't hear you", and the TV and his cell are always up so fucking high in volume because his hearing is going bad.  I wish he would get it checked again.   Either that, or my hearing is bad and I whisper.....or I speak pig latin....ugh

Its probably all me, as usual.  I am sure I am getting this all wrong,  because he is always right and I am always wrong.  That is just the basic fact of the matter.  Not a diss to either him or me, it is what it is.  I am a fucking dumb ass.  Period.

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