LISTEN

 I have come to believe that I must speak in some weird foreign language....and all my texts must be in that same language, because NO ONE hears me!

My kids don't answer my texts, I guess they don't speak "foreign"...My advocate just flat ignores my texts and acts like he didn't even get them.....same with my kids......

I do not understand why I constantly get the cold shoulder, or dismissed or whatever...don't I matter?

Doesn't my thoughts, wants or needs matter?  Can't it be about me, just at least a couple of times?

It is always about everyone else, their feelings, wants or needs...my kids, my advocate, my X, and my squatters, so called friends and extended family....

No matter how loud I scream, or how many texts I write, or letters I write...no matter how much I try and please everyone else, no matter how much I put others first, it doesn't matter.   I am never heard...

Obviously because I don't know my own mind...what I "need" is ignored for my betterment.  Everyone thinks they know what is best for me...

I know what is best for me...JUST LISTEN TO ME!  FUCK

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