Last Will and Testament

 When I split with my husband, I received half of his retirement money.  It was alot,  but in order to have the money, I had to have it transferred to another IRA type investment.   But the investment firm said, I had to have a Last Will and Testament.  So I threw together a Will.

Since then, I have changed my name and made different decisions about my assets.  

I am rewriting my will.   

Its a strange thing, thinking about "who gets what"...will they love and treasure and take care of what I leave them? or will they just fuck it away......

I know a Last Will and Testament is needed, for everyone, but actually seriously filling one out is another story.

There are so many more things to think about...namely, my alters.  How do they feel about me giving away their things???  

I have felt really "out of it" about this Will.  

Am I making the right decisions?  Will my Last Will and Testament cause anger with my family?  

I am leaving nothing, money wise, for my three kids.  In their life, the decisions they made, the bad decisions, and all the money we spent on their "legal bills", "school bills", and other things we did for them, eating loans that we cosigned for them, etc....as far as I am concerned they have already spent their inheritance.

The money instead will be put into a trust for my grandkids.  

This may piss them off....especially Garys wife who is a fucking horrible money hungry bitch...but I don't care.

It is MY money and I can do with it what I want...if I spend it all before I die, then NO ONE GETS MONEY!!!

If John decides to give the kids his money, then that is his choice.  He gives it all away to the church anyway...dumb fuck.

I had a very restless sleep last night, I dreamed alot....I think I was fretting about this Will and my decisions all night...

I also have this fear that once my Will is all written and notarized, then I will die.........

I am preparing for my death....weird.

S, Tessa