Names

 In 1962, I was born Melissa Lou Trammell.

A short time after that I was adopted by my step dad, and my name became Melissa Lou Rundberg. My adopted dad called me Missy.  My birth father was all to eager to let this man adopt me...that meant he no longer had to give my mother child support.  It also meant that my new "dad" could do whatever the fuck he wanted with me.....and he did.

Then my mother married a third time, her third husband adopted me and my siblings...I became Melissa Anne Troutman.  Or Missy Troutman.

I got married, and my name became Melissa Anne Krupovage.   

I left my husband, and changed my name, again...this time to Sparrow Krupovage.  I dropped my middle name....I kept my last name because of my kids and grandkids....but now I am Sparrow.

Melissa Lou Trammell , Missy Lou Rundberg, Melissa Anne Troutman, Melissa Anne Krupovage, and now Sparrow Krupovage.

So, wow...who the fuck am I?

Now I am Sparrow, and have found out I am also:

Tessa

Lilly

Sophee

7

Sammy

Ally

Kaos

Sparrow Lilly Tessa Sophee 7 Sammy Ally Kaos Krupovage....

Its no wonder I don't know who the fuck I am.....its no wonder I have confusion, and frustration....

I JUST DON'T KNOW WHO THE GODDAMN FUCK I AM....I AM AS SCREWED UP AS I SEEM TO OTHERS...I AM THE FUCK UP, THE LOSER, THE NON-PERSON.

S,7,sophee