It is impossible to surprise someone who flat has tunnel vision. I swear, every time I try and surprise my advocate, I fall fucking flat on my face. He is not surprise able.
Every time I try and make plans with my advocate, the plans fall through. You cannot make plans with my advocate. If it happens, it happens, but usually not.
It is very aggravating and irritating and it just makes me want to throw up my hands and say fuck it.
He does not notice me. He notices the alters, but me???? nope, I am invisible.
He said once "my daughter told me that she could walk buck ass naked in front of her then-husband, and he would not notice"....
Well, that is YOU TOO....you don't notice anything, unless it is DID alter related. You don't even hear half of what I say to you, you only half listen....and most times, when you are listening you still do not acknowledge that I am talking....If I say "did you hear me", you says "yes, I heard you" but chose to ignore you.
Last night was the last straw in me trying to surprise my advocate and do something nice...I am done with that.
We will just hang out and be a fucking boring couple....
No more surprises...just bahumbug...
S
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