Yesterday I went to the lake to relax and try and rest my head. Instead I decided to write about my DID, haha big surprise, huh? You know how Siamese twins are two babies born but connected together, sharing an organ or more....sometimes the twins can be separated if they don't share the heart or brain....but sometimes, in utero, the doc can see how bad the twins are and if one will not make it, they can abort that baby. Its called "selective abortion"...which is very common with women who are artificially inseminated with multiple eggs...
Now, DID is alot like being a twin...but in my case, I would be an octo person. Octo means 8...I have eight separate personalities (literally people) in my brain. They all have their own identities, they are alive and real. But they all share a common organ...the BRAIN, and the body...so I cannot do selective abortion on them...
Can you imagine if I could what would happen? What would happen if you abort one of my alters:
Abort Ally: you will kill a child, you kill innocence
Abort Lilly: You kill chrissy, you kill ally, you kill my sentinel
Abort Sophee: then sparrow kills herself
Abort 7: then the heart goes to shit
Abort Sammy: no more enjoyment of music and dance, and no one will ever know why she does not speak...
Abort Tessa: then my home goes to shit, disorder, chaos frustration and guilt...
Abort Kaos: maybe she is half dead anyway
Abort Sparrow: then that makes you a mass murderer, it will kill them all....
So there is no aborting the Siamese brain that is mine. Just like a conjoined twin may have to live with their sibling attached to them for the rest of their life...I have to live with my personalities attached to my brain, for the rest of my life....
S
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