animal in distress

 So we had twin deer born this spring.  They are so cute to watch with their mama.  I watched them the other evening...so cute.

Then I saw one dead on the side of the road....one of the twins was struck by a car.  I realize that this happens, but it hurt my heart so bad....

I almost cannot deal with the death of animals.  My raccoon Bandit, the one I saved from death when he was a juvenile and was so tame and fun..was also hit by a car.

I saw the raccoon and deer both almost at the exact place on the road...dead...the road that the creek lets out on and crosses....

My heart bleeds when an animal is killed....I try not to get attached to the wild critters around here, but it is almost impossible not too...I have to keep telling myself, just enjoy them today, they are wild and can be killed by a car or predator...I know that...but it still hurts me so bad.

I have this unnatural connection to animals....I believe it is because of my Wiccan beliefs and two of my squatters, 7 and Ally.  

They see when a beloved animal is killed or dead...it grieves their hearts too as they love animals as much as I do...so when one of "our" critters is killed, its 3 times the sadness in my heart...

When an animal is in pain, I can feel it in my body too....I feel their pain or suffering...

Why can I feel their pain???  How is that possible?

When an animal is in pain or distress, they don't know why or how or whatever, they are just in pain or distress and their needs are immediate, save me.....

when I was a child, I was in constant pain and distress, I could not understand why, my need was immediate...GET ME OUT SAVE ME..just like the needs of an animal.  An animal trapped in a garbage bin just needs to be let out and set free....as I did Bandit.

A child trapped in an abusive home needs to be freed....but no one ever set me free, no one but my squatters.

Animals in distress, are just like children in distress.  They don't know why, they just hurt and want to be taken care of and relieved of the stressful situation...that is all...

When I see a hurt animal, or a dead animal...inside me my heart feels them...I connect immediately to that animal...because that animal is and was me......

I am an animal in distress...

S, 7