Wednesday, July 27, 2022

misunderstanding

 Now that my alters are comfortable with my advocate, they talk with him, ask him stuff, tell them stuff etc...he talks with them and not always tells me what their conversation is...or was....

I found a note that 7 had written me, telling me something that the advocate said....7, I believe was mistaken, or didn't understand the answer and they took it as bad and let me know....remember my alters are their to protect me, my mind most of all...7, checks my heart...

So what 7 wrote, bothers me...because I do not want my alters to become disenchanted with my advocate.  I want them to trust him, as I do.  But at the same time, I do not want to upset 7, or for 7 to perceive that I am unhappy.  7 will sabotage a relationship if they think it is not good for me....7 is very good at hardening my heart.

What 7 told me, is confusing and frustrating for them and me.  

I am scared that 7 will "do their thing" and push my advocate away.

I believe their message to me, was a misunderstanding of what he said.

S, Tessa

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