orange juice with olives

 How do you turn off your mind?  How do you just lay down in bed at night, close your eyes and go to sleep?

I can be so fucking tired, and go to bed, sleep maybe 3 hours, then I wake up, and thats it...the rest of the night is laying there trying to drift back to sleep, but I never quite make it...

I understand when something is bothering me, I can't sleep, but what about the nights, that nothing is going on?  Everything is good, I am happy, no worries, then go to bed, and still not sleep...I do not understand this weird insomnia I have....I know that having DID can make a person have insomnia...but some nights I sleep like a baby (however, those are few and far between) and other nights, I toss and turn, and think and think and think...I CANNOT TURN MY HEAD OFF TO SLEEP.

It is so frustrating for me, and for my advocate, who has done everything in his power to help me to sleep better....its not his fault I cannot sleep...who's fault is it?

Lilly's?  7? Sophee? Sammy? Tessa? Ally? Sparrow?  the only one I know for a fact that does not affect my sleep is Kaos....so who is making it impossible for me to sleep??????

Probably it is Sparrow, she is always at fault, she is the host, our body, she is ultimately responsible for our well being...if she is careless, it affects us...She is the one that does not sleep...its her, all her fault, and she has nobody to blame but herself..

I just want to sleep like a normal person, get a good 8 hours every night...I still want to try hypnosis...I am getting to the point that I will try anything.....even if it is bizarre or strange....like, if drinking hot orange juice with olives in it would make you sleep...I WOULD DO IT..

I have been awake since 12:30, it is now almost 6 am....sigh

S, 7