always fucked....

 So, here is where I am at today.  I hate being a female.  Being a female is nothing but fucking shit heartache.

If I had been born a male, I would not have DID, those horrific things would have never been done to a little boy...at least not by my specific abuser.

If I had been born a male, I would never have suffered through a miscarriage.  I would never have had to have a radical hysterectomy.  I would not have to be on fucking hormones.

If I was a male, I would not be dealing with fucking masses in my breast...I realize men get breast cancer too, but woman FAR outnumber the men.

If I was a male, I would not be a servant.  Had I been born a male, I would be in control of my own life....not having to have some man control it for me....

Being a woman is a curse.  Pure and simple.  Especially a small woman...small women get absolutely NO respect.  We are nothing but little slaves, baby pushing slaves...

We are defenseless against abuse, especially against a big strong  man...

When a man walks in a room, other men do not look immediately at that mans dick....when a woman walks in a room, all male eyes go to the breast, and when she leaves, the ass....there is no respect for women.

Having breast is a curse, having a womb is a curse, having a period is definitely a curse, then there is menopause, another fucking curse, and what do the men suffer from???? 

NOT a goddamn thing, in fact, the older they get the younger their wives and girlfriends get....because women are nothing in this world...just maids and servants and baby ovens to men.  No man is immune to a young pussy....

A man wants a pussy to fuck, breast to fondle, and someone to have his seed....thats it....that is all a woman is....and I hate being a woman.

Still further proof that GOD is a monster, he created woman as a joke...because that is what a woman is, nothing but a fucking joke.  A necessity to procreate the species, no better than a dog.

I am to fucking old to get a sex change, the damage of being a woman is already done.

7 has the right ideal.  I should just adopt their ideal, and be gender neutral.  But even that, will not stop the carnage of the female chromosome...so still fucked...always fucked....some people are born to be happy, have terrific lives, and are loved by their families, then there is me...the extreme opposite.  Doomed from the get go, soon as my mother became pregnant with me, I was damned....

7, S