freedom

 I feel so safe here in Virginia and with my advocate...do you know how that feels?  To know that nobody is around to hurt me or "trigger" me.  No body here to "call me out as a liar", nobody here to ridicule me or use me for their gain...

I don't have to hide my true self in order to please another...I can be me, I can be us, I am free.

My home and my advocates home are safe places...

I can go anywhere I please, I can say anything I please, I can worship anyway I please, I can watch TV anytime I want and I can watch anything I please...there is no censorship, none.

I have been released from the prison that was Oklahoma....FREEDOM

Married to a prison guard, married to the holy spirit, married to his whims, his wants and his needs...forget me, make sure he is happy...fuck that...

My advocate makes sure that I AM HAPPY...My advocate lets me be me, my true self, he embraces that and encourages me to just be fucking me!  Do you have any ideal what a relief that is?  The weight off my back and shoulders are gone, my advocate carries the weight for me...

My advocate makes damn sure that I am safe, that Ally is safe, that Tessa is safe, that 7 is safe, that Lilly is safe, that Sammy is safe, that Sophee is safe and makes Kaos safe...he embraces ALL OF ME AND THEY TRUST HIM...that is not a small feat, it has taken years for my alters to embrace and accept and trust him,  they, we all know, that he believes in me, in us...he is our protector.

Sparrow