Easter.....ugh

 So it is no fucking secret I am a pagan.  I do not believe in any deity of the christian religion.  They can only back up their belief system by a book, only one book, they quote scriptures from that said book, the bible.  There is absolutely no truth to the christian story.  That book, was written by men, period.  One lone book, does not mean absolute.  How fucking idiotic.

The Easter celebration is all about commercialism and brain washing.  

Buy candy, buy baskets, buy new clothes for church, go buy buy buy...its all about money and the bottom dollar.

Man created a god, because some man some where determined that he would be able to manipulate peoples emotions by inserting a death sentence of Hell...The whole christian religion is based on fear and works.

Go evangelize, give your hard earned money to the church (in other words, line the pockets of the preachers), repent of your sins, they use guilt and ridiculous rules that are stupid and inane.  

Easter and Christmas is one of the biggest money making holidays of the year.  Its all about MONEY.

Then other people decided they needed to make their own religion and to get their own followings of ignorant people looking for love and hope...they use them too...the Muslims, the Buddhist, the Mormons, Scientologist, then all of the splintered "Christian religions, Methodist, Catholics, Presbyterians, etc....its all the same.

IF the BIBLE was truly the spoken word of God, then there would be no room for interpretation...so again, all these splintered religious groups and organizations are false.

The earth has been proven to be billions of years old, yet the bible has only been around like 6,000 years...where was the evangelical god then???  Man created god.

IF the world was created by a GOD, then science would not be able to explain other planets, scientist would not be able to prove that Biblical happenings never actually happened.  The bible is a work of fiction.  Been disproven over and over, yet people refuse to open their eyes to facts, they would rather be deceived and manipulated and live in guilt and fear.

I will not be manipulated into believing a falsehood because some fucking man somewhere decided that there is a god of judgement and hell fire...PLEASE

Now, having said all of that...I have Tessa to deal with....Tessa is a christian.  She is the one that taught sunday school, was the church secretary, worked with the youth and helped to raise "our" children in the christian religion.  

How do I compromise MY paganism with her christianity????  The thought of church, attending a church or even watching some fuck evangelist on TV literally makes me nauseous and I want to puke....

Yet deep inside, my heart and mind is so deeply confused...I need to be able to compromise with my alters, as they obviously have to compromise for me, but I am the host, the Main alter and I have to deal with the physical manifestations, ie, depression, nausea, confusion and frustration...they don't.

So I feel that I have superiority of my heart and mind.  I feel that I am the one to make final decisions and they should just have to live with them and leave me the fuck alone.

I am compromising with the smoking of Sophee and 7. When I feel that Ally is wanting to front, I let her. I am compromising by having toys and doll houses all over the place, I am learning to put myself aside and let them front, I will even turn music on, if I feel maybe Sammy would like to dance...I give myself over to them...I compromise.

But I will not compromise on my Pagan belief.  NEVER

S