exposing my DID

 So, awhile back since when I reached out to my sister about my DID, she has ignored me and refused to learn about it...she has written me off...maybe because of the guilt she feels as it was her bio father that was such a monster to me...whatever, I would never hold that against her, but so be it...if she no longer wants to be my family, ok.

About a week ago, I told my cousin about my DID.  I asked her to read up on DID and then once she has read about it, I will ask her to watch all the videos....so far, I have not heard one fucking word from  her......so it seems, she too will disown me....Even though I made it very clear to her that my bio daddy had nothing to do with my DID...regardless, I am only getting "crickets" from her.

The only family that knows is my other cousin.  And she has embraced me and accepted me, partly because she too has emotional and mental issues that she deals with, so she understands that type of stuff....takes one to know one, kinda thing....

My cousins are all Texans.  All Baptists, all hypocrits when it comes to god, jesus and life...they drink, eat THC gummy bears, swear, yet trot off to church every sunday acting like their shit don't stink.  And here I am, trying to be honest and real, and I am being shuned.....be better off if I was a hypocrite like everyone else...slap my head...

I am very upset...why can't people understand that not everybody had a Leave it to Beaver upbringing....not everyone was loved and cherished by their families...some of us were abused, neglected and cast out, ridiculed and ignored....by no fault of our own, yet family and society puts the blame on us, simply by chosing to ignore the problem or by saying "get over it"...like it i s our fucking fault that we have to live with the PTSD of our abuse....

If I do not hear from my cousin in one more week, I will know that she has rejected my disorder and has written me off....just like my sister....fuck....and if she does exactly that, it will crush me more than my sister ever thought about doing....

I am truly an island, with only one visitor, my advocate.

S, T, 7