Seems like everyone I know who has died, died at the the start of the winter holidays...My daddy was buried on halloween day, 2007...gagey died just before halloween...Jett died right after halloween...JR died three days before christmas...
This is why I fucking hate the holidays...it brings back very painful memories, memories of people I love dying...memories of shit christmas days when everyone got presents but me, being beat with the christmas tree because my "dad" was drunk...
The worst thing about the holidays growing up was the weather...it was too cold to go outside so I was trapped in a house with two monsters...my mom and her husband...I was routinely placed in a small dark room, maybe a closet, because they didn't want to see my face....my toys were taken away and broken or given to my siblings...
winter weather was a jail sentence for me....solitary confinement with a monster....
My childhood died during the holidays....because that was when I learned that Jesus was a fucking joke, that there was no god, no jesus, no angels....all these manger scenes, church services, tv shows...all garbage...no truth to them at all....a bunch of fucking bullshit to make money and make people feel guilty because they can't be like "jesus"...omg, I hate christianity....it is the biggest hoax every placed on man, and man is still falling for it......how pathetic that a person feels the need to have a crutch in the name of god...why can't they just be regular people....will god keep someone from hurting you, killing you, beating you...??? NO FUCKING WAY...
So I wish everybody a Happy Anti-Christmas...
S, 7
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