Friday, November 12, 2021

mothers daughter...

 I have never been able to believe I am beautiful.  No matter how many people tell me so, I can not and will not ever accept that I am beautiful...

I look in a mirror and I do not see beauty,  I see...nothing.

And tonight I finally understand why.  Why I see nothing...

I was cleaning out my photos in my cell phone, getting rid of the memes or repetitive pictures...and I saw a picture of myself...I was not smiling,  but looking straight into the camera...

In that moment I realized, that I look just like my mother...at this age...small physique, blonde hair...the only difference, my eyes are brown, where hers are blue....but looking at that picture of me, I only saw her.....my beautiful monster mother...

I hate my mother....I love my mother.....my mother was beautiful....I am a monster...my mothers beauty with her monster results...my mother was a monster...a beautiful monster.  

I am my mothers daughter...I am beautiful...a beautiful monster.

NEVER TELL ME I AM BEAUTIFUL...THAT IS DEATH TO ME, TO HER, TO US...

S, sophee, 7


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