finished and done

 So we did not do a video this past week...My advocate is having a hard time coming up with a topic that he can expand on....nothing is coming together....

This is why:  The videos have come to an end....there is nothing more to talk about in regards to my DID...

My advocate told me that "watch time" increases when I am on the video...well I wonder why???

This is why:  the few people actually watching the videos want to see a "switch"...they want to see one of my other girls...so they watch the videos with me in them talking, in hope that I will freak out and become somebody else.

I bet if I did allow a "switch" on camera, or a video of one of the girls in action on the Youtube channel our ratings would go up...People want to see the freak show, they want something entertaining to watch....If it is not sensationalism or fake news, then there is no interest and really not even a desire to learn more about the condition...

Hollywood has cemented the stigma of DID with all their fuck ass movies and books...

This condition will never be anything more than a "fake illness", "a movie show" or pure entertainment for the public.

I will not lump myself with all the other "switch caught" bullshit on the other DID channels...if the public really doesn't want to learn about this disorder, then I refuse to keep putting myself out there...it is a colossal waste of my time and my advocates time...

And the knowledge that people are more interested in "seeing me" than actually learning what my advocate has to say,  speaks volumes about the integrity of the videos, fuck knowledge, fuck trying to educate, fuck trying to explain the disorder...NO ONE REALLY CARES...they just want to be entertained...PERIOD

so for entertainment purposes:  Go visit "Multiplicity" or "Encina" or "Disassociative" or any of the other thousands of entertaining DID videos that put on a show....

I am out.

S, T, sophee