So, I have been sitting on this for a couple of days. Trying to process, accept and forget something someone said on my facebook page. This was said on my private page (the one for friends and family) NOT on my Sparrows House page (DID).
This is a guy I met online through another site on facebook. He seemed nice, I checked out his page, he seemed ok. And he is from England, which made me feel safe because he is so far away.....BOY, was I wrong.
I invited him to join my Sparrows House page, partly because I want to get the word out about DID and partly because the woman and doctor I follow on Youtube are also from England. I follow "Multiplicity: ending the stigma of DID, and Dr. Mike Lloyd of the CTAD clinic.
Since he was on both my pages, maybe he thought I was faking because one page there is no mention of the DID and the other is all about DID...was he confused? I have always made it clear about the two pages and they need to stay separate, maybe he missed the memo?
It would have been one thing for him to post this on the Sparrows House page, that is what that page is for, education, questions, comments etc....but this fuck wad decided to out me on my regular page...what a fucking dick. His post was only on 40 minutes before I saw it and deleted it. But a few of my friends on both my pages saw it. This angers me for alot of reasons, first he disrespected my privacy, he deliberately tried to hurt me with his words. He had no regard for my mental health and he mocked a very real and serious issue.....He did not take the time to learn about this, how it is born, what it takes to live day to day, he didn't give a shit. He somehow thought that I got up one day and decided I needed attention...."oh look, I think I will have DID"...what is funny about that train of thought is, I had no ideal what DID even was...I had never heard of it. I was completely clueless like all the non-DID sufferers out there. This idiot fucker did not even try to understand, research or even look at the Youtube videos, or other videos I had posted on the page concerning DID. He reveled in his ignorance.
The only thing that upset me the most about his post, is that he did it on a page that was not about the condition. He deliberately tried to hurt me...he is no fucking better than that ass wipe that abused me...this fucker is abusive and needs to die. Period. He probably beat his own kids and is the worse human in England. But, I am aware that people, many people, will not believe me and they will say the exact things to me that he said....I have to get a thick skin about this sort of condemnation. So, his comments really didn't mean anything to me in the scheme of things, but still, this is a guy who past judgement on a person he has never even met in person...WOW, what a colossal ass.
Now, Sophee, on the other hand, was livid. She is like "I told you so"....if she could have she would fucking have beat the shit out of that guy....I think out of all the girls, Sophee is the one that is not 100% behind me in this DID project (videos). She is like "I told you so"...I don't know if she was angry that he posted on the page he did, or that he posted at all...hard to know with her.
I try and think about Multiplicity and the amount of naysayers she must have to rifle through after each video she makes....I, as a rule, do not read the comments on Youtube, but I do read the comments on my Sparrows Page and my other page...I don't understand how people can say that we are "faking it, or looking for attention"...how do they know??? are they inside our heads? Did they get a front row seat to the abuse we went through as a child? What gives them the authority to say it is fake? I swear people need to keep their opinions to themselves, and instead of jumping to conclusions, why not research and study the condition, and become educated, then make your decision....fuck people are so goddamn ignorant.
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