DID is a war zone

 Having DID is a war zone.  Constant fighting and jockeying for position...the battle bruises my arms, cuts my arms, burns me...it is a word war in my head "you are stupid, worthless, ugly, gross, a monster"...so I am getting beat up physically and mentally...all the fucking damn time...or so it seems...

Sometimes there are "peace talks" and a "treaty can be booked", but those never last long...alters fight dirty, because they can...

They try and take charge every chance they get....they deliberately do things they know Sparrow hates...eating meat, smoking....

They never get tired or run out of ammunition.  They are always ready to fight either Sparrow or anyone else that threatens them.  They do not care about rules, there is no United Nations or Crimes against humanity clauses...they do as they please, much like the Taliban....

We have our own rules and ideology, our own beliefs...We hate the enemy, which most of the time is Sparrow, because she refuses to surrender...

We can leave destruction in our wake...broken dishes, holes in walls, trashed house and furniture, and we don't care...collateral damage.  

We have one agenda....Take care of the host...no matter the cost...fight...and we do...just like the Taliban one agenda is their religion.  We are no different than any other enemy of the state, we fight for our cause and tough on those who get in the way....

We do not respect the law of the land, rules or ordinances.  Those rules do not apply to us.

We feel no pain so we can fight forever...for example:  Sophee put a joint and a cigarette out on her arm...she did not feel a thing, because Sophee feels no pain, it is not until sophee leaves, that the pain and burning starts.  All the alters are like that...

Also having DID is an unwinnable war...there are no winners, only one loser, Sparrow.  Sparrow will never win the war,  we are too strong, too mean and indestructible.  The only thing to strive and fight for is Peace between the personalities...A truce of sorts...

Sparrow waves the white flag all the time, but we yank it down and stomp on it...We will never surrender, never leave and she will never have peace in her soul.  She can never kill us or put us in prison, there are too many of us against one of her.....

We will win this war, we already have.

S, 7, sophee, T

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I am not sure who wrote what...I remember starting this blog about DID being a war zone in my head, but it seems they took over my writing..I wish I knew exactly who wrote what and why....this post is as confusing to me as it must be to anybody reading it...

Sparrow