NM

 So we are in New Mexico now.  Been on the road with my advocates son and advocate over a week, and his son, informed us that he had been exposed to Covid at church camp, a week or so before we left....His stupid ass fuck mother, did not tell us, told her son to not tell us, and she would supposedly have him tested AFTER his trip.....

This is why we cannot get ahead of this epidemic because of stupid ass fuck people like "Jada".....what if he had been positive??? He has been around family and others, exposing them....what if one of them had gotten it, and died...would she even have given a fuck???

Oh and then she said to my advocate (on the phone) that she had tested his son while he was sleeping....YOU CANNOT DO THE TEST WHILE ASLEEP...NOTHING BUT A BALD FACE LIE...THEN SHE IS TELLING HER SON, TO LIE AND DECEIVE HIS FATHER...

I am so scared for the type of kid he will grow up to be....with a mother like her, I fear for his well-being.   Physically, emotionally, and in every fucking way....

He tested negative, so our trip will not be cancelled....but we are not telling his donkey dick sucking mom, gonna let her stew in her own shit, right now.....

On another note,

evidently on the trip from OKC to NM, I had a meltdown, and all the girls came out...7 yelled at the advocates son, and it was a nightmare (and I had no ideal this happened)...I apologized to his son, only because his son has no ideal what is wrong with me....my advocate has told me to never to apologize for their behavior because I have no control over what they say or do....

This is exactly why, I cannot be around children....I know that I probably fucking scared the shit out of that boy...

this is also why I have to live alone.....

Hopefully, today will be a good day.

S

Oh yea, and his son also saw me have a full blown panic attack...we were at the tunnel going towards Cloudcroft, on a two lane highway that is busy...and my advocate took his son into the street to get a pic of the tunnel....I cannot handle people or animals being in the highway.....

I was beyond terrified and had a fucking panic attack....(I have really horrible memories of highway accidents and people and animals being struck and killed by cars) and yet, my advocate (knowing I have this issue) took his kid out there anyway...To be fair, he tried to explain to me that they were never in any way of traffic...but from where I stood, he might have might as well been in the middle of the highway....I felt that was negligent of him and I told him so......

S, T