single

I think I am done, trying to be somebody I am not.  I am done, being a nice person.  I am done with loving anyone.  I am done with being hurt, ignored or secret.  I am done with relationships that only matter when no one is looking...

I am forever and eternally single.   

     

I am not good enough to be a girlfriend, best friend or wife.  Which explains why I am so alone.

  

Having DID frankly is not conducive to a real relationship...how could it be???? I am nothing but a freak walking around, a colossal embarrassment, an ugly gross pig of a woman.

 

There is no way in hell, I could ever be in a committed relationship...

I have finally realized that if people can only say "I love you" in private, but not in public, then "I love you" is nothing but filler words...or words to get your way...

Like my kids, "mom, I love you.......can I have 20 bucks?"  like that.....

Some people are so loveable, others are not....I am the other.....And its okay.  I am too fucking old to worry about a relationship, I can barely manage the fucking 7 alters, how the fuck could I ever manage a relationship?????  I can't.  So I won't.

I am 100% single.  

S