DID support groups

 So, I have joined two DID groups on facebook.  I am fucking shocked at just how many people have this condition.  I thought I was the only one....there are hundreds of thousands of us, male and female.  

That makes me so incredibly sad...because for there to be so many DID people in the world, means that there is an equal or greater amount of monsters in this world causing this.  It saddens me that all those people have suffered as I have as a child...it hurts my heart...I wish it was only me...To think about all the fucking monsters out there that prey on small children to the point where their little mines split, leaves me shaken to the core.

And most of the people in these groups, are still trying to come to terms with their alters, their life situations and their relationships with others....DID is such a hidden condition and not socially acceptable, which keeps us all down and in hiding.

I am so heartbroken for anyone that suffers like this.   Our life started out as a fucking nightmare, continued to be a series of fuck ups, marital and family discord, alienation, self doubt and fear for the longest time, only to find out later that you have alters...so your life NEVER has healing.  it just goes from one clusterfuck to another.....

this is the life of a person with DID...a struggle to live, a struggle to be accepted, a struggle to learn to trust, a struggle to accept your condition, a struggle to stay alive....

DID is a constant struggle in your head....its no wonder I take so many naps...I am exhausted from the activity that never rests in my head...and Hollywood makes it even harder to live with this condition, because it portrays us as monsters....

On the one hand it is very nice and comforting on some level to know that I am not the only person with alters....but on the other hand it is awful to know that I am not the only person with alters.....

Really a person with cancer, or even depression gets more respect from the public than a person with DID...to the public, we are just making everything up......and there is no solid proof and its just PTSD,,,we are blown off as head cases....very aggravating and upsetting.

Anyway, I will stick with these facebook groups for awhile...on the up side, some of the people in the groups have no ideal what or where or how their alters behave, their names, and live in chaos most of the time....mine are more manageable to say the least.

S, T