Mothers Day

 Well it is that time of year again...Mothers Day.  My most hated holiday, next to Easter and Christmas....I can avoid or ignore those holidays, but I have a mom, and she is still alive, hard to avoid and ignore her.  She is my mother, she didn't abort me, or give me up,  she kept me, put a roof over my head, food in my mouth and close on my back.  BUT THAT WAS THE EXTENT OF HER MOTHERING.

As a mother myself, I gave my entire life to my kids.  I went to all their school activities and functions.  I supported all their sports, I told them daily, I love them, I poured all the "mother" love I knew, into my kids.  I listened to them, laughed with them, cried with them, taught them right from wrong, and most of all, I was and still am their biggest fan.  I was there for them, whenever they needed me.....

MY MOTHER WAS NONE OF THOSE THINGS.  But still, I feel obliged to send her a card...and I hate that, because all those fucking mothers day cards say so much bullshit that absolutely does not apply to my mother....It takes me hours to find the right card that really doesn't say shit, except Happy Mothers Day....

But you know, I still send her a card....MY KIDS have never sent me a card, I may get a text, but thats it, and I WAS A GOOD AND LOVING AND CARING MOTHER, yet my own kids blow me off....they act like I am Patsy (my mom) and treated them like shit all their lives...hmmmmm

I wonder how they would feel if I treated them the exact way my mom treated me???

So in a word, MOTHERS DAY SUCKS, ALL THE FUCKING MOTHERS DAY MEMES ON SOCIAL MEDIA ARE MAKING ME SICK TO MY STOMACH...

NOT ALL MOTHERS WILL BE THERE FOR YOU....

NOT ALL MOTHERS LOVE THEIR KIDS...

NOT ALL MOTHERS ARE THE BEST FRIENDS OF THEIR DAUGHTERS...

NOT ALL MOTHERS ARE NURTURING...

SOME MOTHERS ARE MONSTERS....

MY MOTHER IS A MONSTER......I spent and wasted years trying to get her to love me, all in vain...my mother is incapable of loving me...she hates me...I did not ask to be born...its not my fault....yet she has always treated me as the mistake or black sheep....she has belittled and criticized me all my life...and I am suppose to be the good daughter and send her a card???

FUCK THAT SHIT...I could never be good enough, smart enough, for her...I was stupid stupid stupid...I am the biggest disappointment of her life...don't believe me?? ask her.

Here is my Mothers Day wish for my mom:

I HOPE SHE HAS A PERFECTLY MISERABLE DAY

I HOPE SHE CHOKES ON HER MOTHERS DAY MEAL

I HOPE SHE REMEMBERS ALL THE HORRIBLE TIMES SHE ABUSED ME AND I HOPE SHE DROWNS IN HER OWN GUILT.

MOST OF ALL...I HOPE SHE REALIZES WHAT SHE LOST AND IT EATS HER AWAY AT NIGHT FOR THE REST OF HER SORRY LIFE....

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY...PATSY

S, sophee