white shit

Content Disclaimer: {from Sparrow's Advocate}

The following blog was originally written Dec 21, 2020 but it was ME that removed it. The first part is written by Sparrow as she sat at her kitchen table and watched the fog from her window. The rest, was written by Sophee, one of her alters. (a trauma holder) What Sparrow didn't know was that is was triggering Sophee, to release a memory that had been held from her since the 70's. During this time, Sparrow was a victim to a sex trafficking ring. The horrible memory being released during this blog, and the graphic nature of the language, I felt at the time it needed to be removed until Sparrow could come to accept the memory and deal with all the consequences that came with it. I have spoken with Sparrow and Sophee about the memory and I told them both that I would repost it once we had found a way to deal with this memory. I am reposting it, "word for word" the way it was originally posted in December by Sophee.

As I am sitting here typing, I look out the window and I can see nothing. The fog is so thick I cannot even see the driveway.

I feel my skin crawling...and somewhere in the back of my head, I hear bells ringing...

I keep seeing arms, long and dark, poking out of the fog, trying to grab me... I hear footsteps all around, breaking of soft branches, the hiss of sand being kicked about...

I hear breathing, grunting and can smell cigarette smoke... I don't know where to turn... I am so lost, confused, scared, mad.

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He grabs her by the back of the shirt...GOTCHA...she is yanked back into his chest..he spins her around and forces her to her knees...another man appears out of nowhere... materializes in the fog...he holds her shoulders to keep her down.. his hand firmly around her neck.

He forces his cock in her mouth, telling her to not "bite" and laughing...the other man laughs... She is choking, gagging and crying...the bells were still ringing...

He is done and trades places with the other man... his cock was bigger, filling her mouth so that she cannot breath, at all... he "pisses his white shit" all over her face and neck and chest... the other man laughs and rubs himself against her back and he squirts his white shit all over the back of her head... in her hair...she stinks, she is gagging, she wants to throw up, she wants to die...

They leave...leaving her to sitting on the ground, all alone in the fog...

the bells stop.

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I lead her back to the campfire on the beach, I sit her down and take away her pain, I take away the memory...

She thought it was Lilly, but it was not. It was me that kept from killing those men...it was me that covered her mind...

sophee