Youtube video, the beginning

 So,  the Youtube show roll out has begun.  My advocate received the video camera in the mail, and has started the rough draft of the first segment.  He has done the new email address addressed with the account, and pretty much settled on a picture to be my avatar if you will.  He wants to take a picture of a Sparrow, and make it a puzzle....hard to explain, but I like the ideal.  The Sparrow matches the sparrow tattoo I have on my leg and also my name.

I was really nervous how the alters would react to the video.  I was not sure if they even knew of the ideal, approved of the ideal, or what.  I felt that we needed their permission too, or know what their concerns are...so my advocate called each alter out, explained the video, got their input and permission.  Evidently all the alters are "okay" with the video.  Only Tessa, I believe, had some issue but her and the advocate worked it out.

We will also be starting a Facebook page, only for the Video series and a separate blog.  The other blog will be me or the girls blogging about the segment discussed on the video.   Their thoughts, concerns, comments and mine... This particular blog (mksparrow) will not be part of the video because it is also about the brain tumors, splitting with my husband, religion and other topics not pertinent to the blog or its material.  However, some entries will be pasted to the new blog if it is relevant to the topic.

When we start actually filming,  I am going to be behind the camera.  My advocate gave me lessens on the camera, the stand (how it works), I will operate the camera, and do all the behind the scenes work.  I do not want to be on camera...I know I will have to show my face occasionally so the people watching will see that I "do exist"!  haha, but this video series is more for Kevin and the caregivers and loved ones of people with DID.  How to spot it, how to understand, how to live and incorporate the condition into daily normal lives.   There are so many videos out there about DID.  Some are frauds, posing as DID (my advocate also has suggestions for "testing" to see if this person really has DID or some other condition like PTSD or whatever.) Some are very good, I watch two different ones from two women who have DID...but it is them talking, not her significant other....so our video has a different slant to it.  I feel, once it gets out there,  lots of family members (of DID sufferers) will tune in and I hope the show really helps them...

I have been warned about trolls and people who will do nothing but criticize and ridicule the subject.  I will not be reading any of the comments left by people....I do not do rejection well......

I was talking to a friend of mine and she suggested that, when I do appear on the video I will wear a mask or glasses with a mustache attached...hahaha  I CAN DO THAT!!  Great fucking ideal.

So, there you have it.....it has begun...

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