Sparrow Against the Wind

 Ok, so who would have thought producing a video was so much work and so time consuming.  I was like, I will just point the camera and shoot while the advocate talked.....fuck that....It took two full days to shoot like 15 minutes of video.....HOLY COW....I now have a greater appreciation for film crew and directors....

My advocate had really good ideas on visual presentations, and he speaks well on camera.  I am excited and terrified of this video series at the same time.  So now, he just has to edit, and cut and splice and put together the shots and upload to our Youtube station.  

Filming is long and tedious, tons of "starting at the beginning", "redos" and even making sure his clothes and the decor around him is untouched and looks the same....Two days of filming to look like it took a few minutes.  So, I have to make sure all inanimate objects are in the same place, his hair and clothes the same, etc....NO BLOOPERS!!   

So hopefully within the next couple of days, our first video will air on Youtube.  You won't be seeing me, not for awhile, I may do a cameo appearance here and there, but this video is not about me, its about the people around the DID person,  dealing with, understanding, watching for, etc...So it will be mostly my advocate talking about that type of stuff.

He will not be talking about the specific incidences and or details about the alters individual birth dates...the truama that made them...that is just not necessary.   The fact is they are here, so lets deal with them and learn to live with them....how they got there is really not that important, at least not really that important in what are series is about. 

I think we are going to call the channel "Sparrow against the wind."  that is a line from a poem I wrote years ago, and my tattoo is a picture of a sparrow flying against the wind...

I am excited and scared for this video.   I do not want to be a freak, I do not want to appear freakish like so many of the DID people in videos.  I am a normal adult woman, who happens to have 6 other personalities.   Sounds fucked up, but really, it is not so bad, it is my handicap.  Other people have handicaps they have to accept and deal with and move on, same with me.

S