Ally's dream

Ok, so earlier I wrote an entry called "dreaming alters"...I was wondering if my alters dream...I have watched YouTube videos of others with alters, instructional and educational shows on DID, but nobody has ever addressed the issue of sleep, and if my alters dream.  I know that I dream, as Sparrow, but what about the others?

Well I now have the answer.  At least an answer for me.  YES, the alters dream.

A couple of nights ago, my advocate stayed over night.  He was asleep on my couch (which is a hideaway bed also) and sometime in the night, he said that "Ally" came into the room, and curled up at the foot of the couch bed.  He thought it was me, Sparrow, until he said something.  He told me that she had come into the room, crawled into the bed and was crying.  When asked why, Ally said that she had a bad dream that all her toys were destroyed...He said he put his arm around her, ensured her that her toys were not destroyed, and sung to her, lulling her back to sleep.  He said at some point she got up and went back to bed.

I do not remember that happening at all.  Obviously, it was not me.  It was Ally.   

In my other blog about "dreaming alters", I stated that I remember dreams about dancing and others...but if I remember them, then chances are they weren't dreaming (sammy was not dreaming about dancing) I was, I remember the dream.  Is that how it works???

So, I do believe Alters dream, just like I dream, the host, Sparrow.  Another thing, if the alters all think Sparrow is an alter like them (when one is presenting they feel Sparrow is like them...) then just by me dreaming...an alter is dreaming???!!!  

fuck, it is so confusing...

The advocate once asked Ally, "where is Sparrow?"  Her answer, "she is sleeping".  So at least when Ally is out, she perceives Sparrow as sleeping...when the others are presenting, where or how do they perceive Sparrow?  I have no ideal.

If I sleep all night, but am so fucking tired still the next day, I am beginning to think, on mornings like that...I must have had the alters dreaming and running amok all over my apartment...like Ally obviously does!  My X husband said I sleep walked at times...I really think what he saw was my alters out, fronting, while I was asleep...or maybe they were dreaming...

I just don't know...there is literally so much mystery about DID..it is an enigma...

S