I am pagan. Wiccan. I believe in the power of the universe and I believe there are many gods and goddesses. I believe I am a goddess. I do not believe in the "one god" "heaven and hell" theology.
With that said, I believe in "spells"...which is not unalike "prayer" except that more symbolism is used. Casting spells, good or bad, can have repercussions that are not always pleasant to receive, even if a "good" spell was cast.
For example: I would never cast a spell that would bring harm to anyone or anything. I do not believe in creating a harmful karma.
So my advocate is a huge Dallas Cowboys football fan. For the game this past sunday, I cast a spell for victory, with the caveat that no player on either team would be hurt or injured. A good clean game. I lit a gold candle for victory, and a blue for determination, calm, and clarity. Dallas won the game by 1 point at the very end of the 4rth quarter. The win was so spectacular...no other team has ever come back to win by 1 point in the way, dallas did with this game. He was so excited.
I did not tell him I cast a spell for victory until the game was over. the way the game was going, I figured it was not in the universes plan for dallas to win...it looked bad. then out of nowhere, here come the cowboys for a spectacular win...
I was so happy....no team players of either team were hurt or injured. It was a good clean fun game. I felt my "spell" had been answered. And it was....
However, I believe what you put out there will come back to you, either good or bad....the very next day, I started feeling really angry...for no reason. Everyone and everything was pissing me off and causing me to feel rage...Why??? nothing was going on to piss me or anyone of my alters off....so why did I feel like a fucking pissed off angry monster???
Then it hit me. Karma. I put a spell out for Dallas to win, but the game be safe for all players. But in Dallas winning, and the way they won, the opposing team and opposing team fans were angry. They lost when they thought victory was at hand....
Their rage and anger was coming to me, their angry karma, was hitting me...I was "standing in the gap" of their anger, rage, disgust, discouragement and disbelieve of the game....I was having to feel all their emotions. I had not thought about the feelings and repercussions coming back to me like that....afterall, I thought I was hurting none. But I was hurting thousands of fans and the players...
All spells have repercussions, even good spells. I am learning that with every good there is a bad. What you put out there, comes back to you 100 fold.
Today, I am feeling better...I slept 12 hours last night.
I tried to explain what was going on with me to my advocate, but he just did not understand. He discounts my "karma" thinking...he is not a believer like I am....he is scientific and rational. Witchcraft is not scientific or really rational...so he cannot understand the repercussions of spells....It does not compute in his brain.
But there it is......I don't think I will cast another "victory" spell for Dallas. I hate the way I have to feel the next day....
It was not my alters who were angry (as he was thinking about calling them out one by one to ask them) it was the emotions of the losing team and losing team fans rage and disappointment energy that was released....and I felt a small impact of that energy, but big enough impact to fuck up my day.....
But I guess, in the end, it is all good as the Cowboys won! and I learned a valuable lesson in spells.....
S
PS. I know I sound like a fucking fool, believing this way, maybe it isn't true, the Karma thing....but I believe in it anyway.
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