train tracks

Her mom had twin sisters.  Those sisters are 10 yrs older than her.  They had kids, my cousins.  Their youngest kids were about 5 yrs older than me...So I was around 5 yrs younger than them, and they loved to pick on me, bully me...

My cousin, Paul, and cousin Patricia, would only talk in pig latin around me, because I could not understand what they were saying.  They use to laugh at me and tease me.

My aunt lived in a very small town in NM.  They had a horse, and a line of hay bales.  She also lived with the railroad track running just behind her house.  Whenever a train would go by, usually up to 4 a day, her house would shake and rumble...it use to scare the little girl to death until she got use to it.

One day, the mom and her kids went to visit her sister in the small NM town.  The dad did not go.  The little girl took her Chrissy doll to play with because she knew the other kids would not play with her.  She was outside by the hay bales playing.  The cousins came up and started talking in the pig latin.  She did not understand, so she told them to leave her alone.  One of them grabbed her Chrissy doll out of her hand and they started throwing it back and forth between them and she could not get it back...It was very upsetting to her because the Chrissy doll was her ONLY toy, and it was also her companion, friend and more...

The cousins started running back and forth between the hale bales throwing the doll up and down and not letting the little girl have it.
She was trying real hard not to cry, because if she cried they would really be mean then....

In the distance she heard the train blow its horn, it was coming into the small town....in a few minutes it would be passing the house.  The other cousins heard the train, and one of them grabbed the doll, ran to the tracks and threw the doll on the tracks!  They both started laughing and laughing, they thought it was so funny.  

Then they ran off back into the house....The train was rumbling closer and the little girl dashed to the tracks, (she was not allowed to play on or get near those tracks) but she had to get her beloved doll...there was no time to go get her mom or an adult...So she climbed onto the tracks, grabbed her doll and ran back to the hay bales to hide behind...the train came by, moving very slowly...she could hear the rumbling and bits of hay started to fall off the hay bale behind her...she also thought she heard someone yelling....

Finally the train went by.  She heard the yelling again, this time she could tell it was her mom, calling her name.  She could tell the mom was very agitated and mad.  The little girl slipped the doll up the back of her shirt and walked out from behind the hay bale.  The mom saw her and screamed at her "how  many times do I have to tell you to not get on those tracks?"(my cousins told her I was playing on the tracks and a train was coming)  the mom walked up and grabbed the girl by the neck and started yanking her to the house.  The doll fell out of the back of her shirt onto the ground.  The little girl tried to explain what happened with the doll and the cousins, but the mom told her to shut up and quit blaming others.  She picked the doll up and started hitting the little girl with it, over and over, messing up the dolls hair and clothes...but thankfully she did not break the doll.   

Once back in the house the little girl had to sit behind the chair and stare at the wall...but she did not mind...she was alone and hidden and could be quiet for hours.  Her mom wanted her to think about what she did, how bad she was for tattle tailing and how bad she was for playing on the track.  She also thought about what her mother called her...a "stupid little good for nothing girl",  "should have let the train run you over"..."why don't you ever behave" "why can't you be like your cousins"..."I don't have time for your shit"...blah blah blah...

Its okay now, her words were far away, and she was safe, behind the chair....hiding....her and Chrissy.

S