depressed alter

Holy shit, last night was a clusterfuck of alters....
I am not even sure what all happened, who happened, and how it happened, but  I guess my advocate had ALL their attention last night.

My advocate did say, and I remember this, is that "I" Sparrow, may not be the one who suffers from depression.  It may be "Tessa", who seems to be my twin.  

Now how the fuck do you treat depression in an alter?????  when I was being diagnosed with clinical depression, was the shrink really diagnosing Tessa and not know it?

Tessa mimicks me.  She has been "me" all my life...she has pretended to be me....I really think that Tessa is out periodically during the day, every day.   The other alters are not daily alters, with maybe the exception of Ally too...

Maybe this explains why some days I am so happy, I feel alive and safe and content...then Boom...all the sudden I fall into the depression mode....Is that Tessa fronting?  When she fronts does that cause depression in me???  Is Tessa depressed?  Why?  What is her story?  

I have so many questions, and I am so confused and discombobulated .... and if I am so confused, imagine my advocate having to decipher and piece together this 10000000 piece puzzle that is me...

I don't know....Fuck this is so frustrating....

S