The girls.

I am going to try and talk about each alter.  who they are, and everything I currently know about them.  

-Ally:  She is a little, 6-9 yrs old.  She plays with dolls and loves horses and all animals.  She is left handed.  When she presents, my face somehow changes, sudtly, but there are changes.  She has a different voice, a childs voice.  She remembers everything.  She has no fear of heights or any type of phobia.  She sees herself with shortish strawberry blonde hair. (which I had as a small child).  She is always happy and she is "never tired"...haha

-Lilly:  in the beginning, Lilly is the first alter that I was aware of.  Only I was told that she was a demon.  That I was demon possessed with the horrible biblical woman "Lillith".   She was given the name "Lillith'.  Later, christians tried to exorcise her from me...
She is a little taller than me,  and has long dark hair, and she makes my eyes turn black, she has a deeper voice, when she presents.  She always presents by standing just behind my right shoulder, in my peripheral vision.  She is also left handed.  She is very serious.  She can drive a car.  She has very few words when she speaks and is all business all the time.  Lilly has aged from around 6 yrs old to now 19 yrs old.  Lilly can use a cell phone to text.

-Sophie:  I don't know alot about her.  She is my persecuter.  She harms me.  (all my life I have self-harmed myself, burns, bruises, cuts...etc..) but I have learned that Sophie is the one hurting me.  she feels it is her job to punish me, to hurt me.  NO ONE else is allowed to hurt me or punish me.   Sophie, when she presents, I swear, I was told she seems to get taller and her shoulders broader.  she clinches her fists.  Sophie is right handed.  I got a brief glimpse of her in the mirror, she is like the size of an Amazon woman with big hair, brownish.  Long thick big hair.  Not sure of her age, but she is around 20.  She also can type and use a computer.  She is right-handed and she smokes cigarettes.

-Sammy:  Sammy is new to me too....She loves music.  Sammy is a dancer.  Music is her trigger.  She does not speak, but uses sign language to communicate.  she can hear though.  She is very modest, in dress and in mannerisms.  she is right handed.  She can also drive a car.  She can type and use a computer....don't know her age or what she looks like...but I think around 20's.  She also writes.  She does not like thunderstorms and heavy rain...Sammy is 27.  Sammy is lesbian.  She does not like men, as they hurt her.

-Kaos:  Kaos, we believe got her name from the TV show. Get Smart.  We believe she is a fragmented alter.  She only fronts during sex.  The TV show was playing during a very violent moment and during that horrible experience, Kaos was born.  Kaos is very sexual and obviously old enough.  20's??  She really does not speak at all...

Fragmented means: not fully formed.  I do not believe (but I may be wrong) that Kaos is a full identity, but a piece of one.

Tessa:  Tessa is my main alter, I think.  She takes over my day to day chores and such when my mind starts to wander.  She will interact with other people, posing as me (Sparrow)...she has been doing this all my life.   Tessa looks like me, but she says she has blue eyes.  She sounds like me and can mimic me perfectly.  My advocate can only tell her from me, as Tessa, won't kiss him...In fact, my advocate and I have an "understanding".  If he comes over and I do not go over and kiss him, then he knows it is Tessa.  I will make it a point to go and kiss him, but Tessa will not.  Tessa is also right handed...Tessa is christian.

Do I have more alters?  I don't know, maybe.  This is certainly a journey, learning about everyone in my head...haha

I also think that one of the alters has a heart murmur as well.  Just don't know which one that is.  I also am wondering if one of the alters has a vision astigmatism...Some eye doctors tell me I have one, some eye doctors don't see one....weird as fuck, like the heart murmur.

Writing all this sounds like science fiction or the script to a Hollywood movie.  But it is real.  This is reality.  My alters are very real individuals,   so fucking bizarre, but real.  

On a side note:  My dog Boomer, knows when an alter is out.  He does not like Sophie or Lilly...he leaves the room, literally, when they front.  He also knows when Ally is out.  He will play with her and watch her with his intent eyes.  He doesn't mind Tessa.

S