GOD is dead

I wish I knew answers to fuck situations.  Why this, why that, why me, why why why.....

I do not believe in a god, so nobody to ask when I am dead...so that leaves me pondering "why the fuck"  I am still alive....

Fucking christians will say "its not for us to know why, but to just know that GOD has a plan and a purpose for your life'...blah blah fucking blah.

WHAT THE FUCK WAS HIS PURPOSE....
   -was his purpose for me to be fucking abused, beat, molested, ridiculed, treated worse than a stray dog, and to be the most abused child in America...EVER
   -was it his purpose for me to have a split mind?  was the abuse allowed so I can have even more fuck identities and be fucking confused my entire life?
  -was it his purpose to send all those fucking christians to make sexual advances towards me, to sacrifice a baby pig on me for Satan?
  -was it his purpose for me to develop fucking brain tumors that have now totaled more than 13...yet I live on...suffering....
   -does he get pleasure watching me fall on my fucking face every time I try to live?????
   -was it his purpose to give me a grandson, then viciously take him away from me with the very brain cancer, that I am living with??

Is this that loving forgiving GOD the christians talk about???  Well, if that is a loving forgiving caring god...NO FUCKING THANK YOU.....FUCK YOU CHRISTIAN NON-EXISTING GOD..WHAT A FUCKING JOKE.

The bible says "suffer the little children"....well that fuck god is good at that...causing suffering....HE or IT does not love children, or anybody for that matter.  The christian god is nothing more than a selfish self-centered narcissistic self righteous conceited pig.

America is saying the COVID-19 is just a governmental coup to control its people....

I SAY CHRISTIANITY is false.  Christianity is nothing more than mind control, money control....it is just as much a coup than anything else...even worse because the public is so fucking stupid and believes all the bullshit that has been handed down to them for generations...heresay...Believing bullshit lies, talk about gullible....

IF THERE TRULY WAS A GOD IN HEAVEN...I WOULD BE DEAD AND MY GRANDSON WOULD BE ALIVE.
  GOD IS DEAD

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