Sammy

Last night, my advocate and I visited with two friends.  We had pizza and watched a movie, and I cut his friends hair.  As I was getting ready to cut his hair, he put some music on to listen too.

I don't remember what I am about to tell you, my advocate told me.

As Chris Cornell was playing over the TV, and I was just about to cut his hair, Sammy fronted.  She started to dance, to drift off into the music....my advocate saw her, and softly said "Sammy", then he "signed" no.   She obeyed and responded with "ok" in sign,  my advocate signed "thank you" and she signed back "welcome"....

Then Sparrow was back, and cut his hair. Again, I was totally unaware of the moments before when Sammy fronted.

The two friends, never saw her, never realized it was "her" that was dancing...this was the first time an alter fronted in front of "strangers" got caught and acquiesced.   Later, my advocate explained to the friends what had happened.   One friend said he heard the name "Sammy" and saw the signing and "wondered" what was going on, but nothing more....

This is how my alters have been around for so long...and the reason I was not aware of them, because they were "me" and people who know me, think, "well that is just Melissa, she is quirky..."  

How many others people are out there being "quirky" but really have alters???  

I know that when my family start finding out about me, then I am sure they will be thinking "awe, that explains that..." at least I hope so...

This is why "trust" is so important to alters...if they can trust the people around them, then they are more relaxed and natural.  Sammy trust my advocate.  She did his bidding (her dancing was not appropriate for the situation, cutting hair"...and everything was cool.

S

PS.  I think Sammy got her name from a Siamese cat I had as a child.  The cat was called Sammy.