Puzzles and others

Puzzles

I try to put the pieces of my life together,
when I am almost done, I find one missing,
nothing like living as a puzzle,
than can never be fully completed.
I sometimes search under memories,
and behind experience, but the piece eludes me.
I hear the rain against the window,
so soft and hypnotic, I close my eyes, dream...
in the back of my mind, I get a glimpse,
or a missing memory, a missing puzzle
If I could only reach out and grab it..
the the dream is just too far.
reality awakens me, I am left feeling empty.
alone and sad, my life dismembered
by paths of shame that have robbed me of completeness.
Never to be whole, always searching,
for a lost cause, a lost puzzle piece...
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Dreaming

There's a buzzing in the back of my head.
a full moon gazing through the window.
I am breathing in a heartbeat,
close my eyes, no control...
flies get louder and surround my mind,.
stinging, millions in a cloud of gray.
startled awake, my heart pounding on, 
look around, I am okay
uneasiness pulls at my emotions
thru the curtains into the night, I see the moon.
relax, memories haunt my dreams
a lone fly lands on the window sill,
waiting for death..
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Loneliness

Loneliness assails her,
every waking moment, it showers down.
as she stumbles in the puddle.
People always hurting her,
torturing her soul.
Unkempt promises, sugar-coated lies.
Is there a friend for her?
muddy water leaves footprints,
where she's been,
a path to the lonely.
where tears threaten to fall,
but pride keeps locked up.
so desperate, she is, for love, a friend
hoping for trust, crying when crushed.
keep the walls up,
where footprints won't find her...