Describing Lilly

I cannot really describe what my alters look like, more in the order of "how they behave"...

The only alter I can "kinda" see is Lilly.  But, she is just behind my right shoulder, just barely out of my peripheral vision.  But I get the image of her being really still, about as tall as me, maybe a tad taller,  yet floating just above the earth..I get the impression of long straight hair, dark, below the shoulders.  I also can sometimes see the outline of the side of her jaw, as if a sun ray hit her at just the split second I actually see the outline of her face...but not quite...she does not speak...she is watching me...my sentinel of sorts...or as my advocate calls her, the Palace Guard.

Lilly only presents when I am scared or if she perceives I am in danger...Or if I am really hurt and extremely emotional, like that....I think Lilly was my first "babysitter".......literally.

The other alter I can feel pretty strongly is Ally.  I do not see her, but I feel her giddiness, I feel her happiness, I feel like I need to giggle...this is Ally, my apparently very happy little girl.

I get the impression Lilly is not a happy alter, at all.  She is very direct and to the point, short on words, and don't give a rats ass who or what you are.  She does her thing, deal with it...then she moves on.  Her mentality is very straightforward, and she is, I guess, the boss of all the others.....???  Not sure on that, it is very confusing...

S