Saturday, March 28, 2020

The girls

So I am going to try and write about each of my alters.  What I know about them.  

Lilly: the first I was aware of:
         age progressed from 8 yrs to 19 yrs old (as memories/trauma is dealt with, she grows older) 
        left-handed
        was thought to be originally a demon
        serious, seems angry alot
        hears everything going on around her
        can drive a car
        she has a low voice
        protector
        female (sissy)
        takes my memories away, gives me memories
        can control my heart rate
        can control my breathing
        can take away or mask pain
        she has proclaimed that all of us are one...
           has different facial features (her eyes get dark)

Ally:  (the second I was aware of)
         6-9 yrs old
         female
         left-handed
         always happy
         never sleepy
         sees everything around her
         bait (she would take punishments for others, siblings)
         stress relief
         loves to play
         facial features change when she is fronting (higher cheekbones, brighter eyes, carries herself different
         voice change

Sammy:
         does not speak
         uses sign language to talk
         right-handed
         female
         20's?
         can drive a car
         loves music and dancing
        very modest, bashful, shy
         (had deaf friend, Sylvia as child)  
             -this is an evolving memory...

Sophie:
        angry, mean spirited
        calls sparrow names
        writes wicked words with sharpie on sparrow
        hurts sparrow, with physical violence (self harm) and hurtful s          speech.
         right handed
        female
         age (?)
        throws stuff, breaks dishes and objects
        

There is another alter we are discovering.  But this one does not have a name...just gave an "adjective", which I do not know yet. she told Kevin, who has not told me yet. So I know zero about this one.

Then there is Melissa (host?)  
           57 yrs old
           ambidextrous
           animal lover
           mother, wife, girlfriend, memaw
           christian, church goer
           bisexual (closet)
           volunteer advocate
           loves tattoos
           short hair only
           gymnast

Then there is Sparrow (an alter??)
           my identity
           host, now?
           single
           writer
           BDSM
           57 yrs old, adult
           pagan, wiccan
           boomer
           independent
           wild and loose
           long blonde curly hair
           bisexual
           submissive to Kevin
           tattoos
           girly girl
           hates christianity with an unnatural zeal
           voyeur

So far, this is all I know.   Are there more alters?  who the fuck knows, but they are slowly coming out, fronting.   
         

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