No forgiveness

All these stupid fucking christians with no clue about real life....they say "you need to forgive"....forgive the person that hurt you, destroyed you, etc....

well fuck that shit!   It may be easy for a fuck christian to pray to god and ask god to forgive them of the "whatever" they did to someone else.....forgive me god for fucking a child.  Thank you for that forgiveness......  but what about the child?????? what if that child will not or can not forgive them???

Christians and their "having their cake and eating it too" mentality is so fucking stupid....

I can never forgive my mother, SHE HAS NEVER ASKED ME TO FORGIVE HER...but I know her christian ass has asked god to forgive her for her horrible mothering....so I guess she feels good about herself now....

but what about me?  How do I forgive a mother who has not asked for my forgiveness or even wants it...How can I ask a fuck drunk ,monster of a "step dad" for forgiveness, how can I forgive a dead man....?  How can I forgive a fucking pedophile monster who is locked up in prison???  THEY NEVER ASKED ME FOR FORGIVENESS FOR THE MONSTROSITIES THEY IMPOSED ON ME...why in the fuck hell should I forgive them?

will it make me less angry?  NO
will it make me less sad?  NO
will it give me closure? NO
will it change me? NO
will it get me into heaven? FUCK NO

I will not ever, forgive them.  They do not deserve forgiveness...
The victim should never forgive a perpetrator, especially if they don't ask for forgiveness....(the perp)...

This bullshit feel good "forgiveness" shit, does not make me sleep better, it does not make the memories and hurt go away...all forgiveness does is lets the "monsters" off the hook....

Instead, I am hoping that the pedophile in prison is getting ass fucked and beat everyday by other inmates, I hope he is fucking miserable and in excruciating pain and lives a long time being somebody elses bitch....

I hope the dead mother fucker "dad" spirit and soul are being devoured by worms and he cannot rest...EVER

I hope my mother remembers and relives the horrors she let happen to me in her dreams every day and she cannot rest.  And I can't wait for her to die and see for herself there is no fucking god and heaven...she will just rot.  Perfect ending for her.

AND IF ANYONE THINKS I SHOULD FORGIVE THEM FOR THEIR ACTIONS AGAINST ME, THEY MIGHT AS WELL PISS IN A FAN.....IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN.