So, NOW I have to figure out which is causing my memory loss and, headaches. As everyone knows I have more than 10 brain tumors in my frontal lobes. I have radiation damage from the surgery years ago (to the brain). WHAT IS THE ALTERS AND WHAT IS THE BRAIN TUMOR??? BOTH ARE REAL. Do the brain tumors effect the alters or just me, Sparrow.? Are the tumors in the frontal lobes actually fucking with me???, no, I have had Lilly and Ally since I was a little child, didn't have the tumors then....
I have had doctors say I have a heart murmur, and then I have doctors that say "no, I do not have a heart murmur. (Kevin goes with me to all my appointments and has seen this personally)
Can an alter have a heart murmur, and its only detected when she is present?
Some eye doctors have told me I have an astigmatism, other eye doctors say I don't....
My face, eyes, voice, mannerisms all change to different "looks" when they are present. And no, they are never all out at once....
No, they don't talk to me, I don't talk to them...I can, however, feel when my little wants to present, I feel like giggling and laughing (thats Ally)....
I can "see", but not really see, more like feel a presence and can see a shape just behind my right shoulder, I cannot see a face or anything, but when that happens, that is Lilly.
The others are way more sudtle as to why I don't know them or their habits or whatever...and Kevin said they can be very good at imitating me, they have had to my whole life....
shit...I hope maybe that helps with some questions you might have....Kevin knows each one, because he knows me and watches me so closely, he is learning who is who by watching me, my hands, my face, my posture, my speech and sound of voice whatever...and he is still learning more...
The picture I am going to post is "Ally". I have posted it before on this page. If you look closely, ,my eyes are different, ,my features are different. I have no memory of this picture, Kevin took i. Kevin took it to show me Ally. To show me the changes in my facial features and such...
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