My kids

When I was a little girl, all I ever wanted was to have a baby.   I wanted a family that is love....

I wanted my kids to have the life and upbringing I did not have.  A two parent home, with a good father and husband...I wanted my kids to have every advantage that I did not have.  My kids were happy, they were healthy and they never wanted or needed anything.  They had an excellent father and a great life growing up.

They were never emotionally or verbally abused...they were never sexually molested.  They never had to "kill" a treasured pet....they never had to experience "sex trafficking" rape, and all the other constant horrors that plagued my life right up until high school.  They never had to curl up in a ball so the kicks and blows wouldn't hit them in the face or stomach....they never had to watch their mother get beaten...they never had to protect one another from their dad....my kids will never know what their mother endured....

they will never know the horrors that were so great, my little child brain literally split into two other personalities.....my kids will never know any of that.   My kids got to live the life I wanted to live, the life I wanted them to have.   I accomplished my goal as a mother.

Now it is my turn to have a life for me, and me only.  Now is the time for me to be happy, safe and content.  Now is the time that Ally and Lilly don't have to hide, I don't have to hide them...I can cuss and swear, watch any movie or TV show I want, listen to any type of music I want, go anywhere I want, spend and buy anything I want...wear anything I want....I am free....

My only wish is that someday, my kids will get their heads out of their asses and accept me as I am today.  They have their life...I have mine, my new life.....and I will not apologize ever for my decision to leave my life in Oklahoma or to leave my husband.   

I will never marry again....I will never live with anybody again.  I am me, myself and I....I will have a romantic relationship with a Master, I will indulge in my true submissive personality and live as a submissive...I will practice my craft, witchcraft, and be happy in me...I am Sparrow...and I am flying....I am free....