Truths that kill

How do I work through my "truth"...
How do I make peace with my past, yet not harm anyone?

As long as I am silent, there is peace....Peace for everyone but me...My soul is at war with my memories... My heart takes jabs at my mind...

To speak my "truths" will harm others....Will raise dozens of questions, and offend many...

Some of my "truths" may destroy lives, lives that have moved on..forgotten and put away awful history...should history stay history...Never to be studied..

What if I was asked, no, really "told" to never speak of some things again...yet I am speaking of them...I have to speak of them...so the nightmares will stop...

Am I ready to destroy relationships and uproot complacency just so I can sleep?  Walking away from a 34 yr marriage, destroyed many relationships within the family...am I ready to destroy the rest????

Am I brave enough to expose myself?  My truth?  Am I ready for the millions of questions?  the denials?  the why's? 

Am I ready to speak up for myself???  Can I?  Should I?

Is it okay for me to shut up the memories and lock them away, so they hurt no one else?   Can I continue to live with horror and rejection like I have been...?   

I write my truths in this blog....I write my truths in my heart...I live my truths every day.....and I suffer every day....

If I admit to my truths,  they will kill people, kill their spirit, kill their soul and kill any relationship I might of once had with them...do I risk that, just so I can be free???

How do you make peace with yourself when you have "truths that kill.."?