Doesn't matter

Life doesn't matter...
That is obvious with abortion...war...politics...

It doesn't matter how much you love your kids, or how hard you try and be a good mother, wife, person, friend, whatever....it just fucking does not matter....

Because in the long run, your life is not worth it....you pour your life and love into your kids...they grow up and slap your face, talk down and judge you...they feel they can say anything they want to you....no respect...nothing

You give 34 yrs of your life to a man, who takes you for granted and only needs you for his needs...laundry, chores, finances, meals, etc...your needs are not important....

and when you finally say "what about me?"  you are labeled a selfish bitch...uncaring...wrong...sinful...blah blah blah...

Seems the only time any of my kids want to talk to me is for two things:  1.  to call me names and tell me what a fucking horrible person I am...and 2.  if they need something, money, or whatever...or to tell me something positive that is happening in their life...

But when it comes to me...SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AND LEAVE....YOU ADULTERER, THIEF, SLUT, ETC...

If I could live my life over, knowing what I know now...I would have NEVER GOTTEN MARRIED, I WOULD HAVE NEVER HAD CHILDREN...I WOULD HAVE NEVER JOINED A FUCKING CHURCH AND TRY TO BE A GOOD CHRISTIAN.

I would have lived my life, only for me.   Because in the end, you is all you have...really....and what is "me"?  nothing.  I am nothing...